In my quest to change my life via Social Media & Youtube, should I know instinctively that it will never happen?
Having been on youtube for more years than I can remember, and tried to produce content on a wide varied group of subject matters including, Aquariums, Ants, VR Gaming, Airsoft, MTB, Vanlife & Hiking none of which were successful or grew beyond 6k subscribers.
They say success comes to those who refuse to give in, who want to be successful and will never give in, I certainly have that British Grit and determination, I refuse to surrender no matter how long it takes me. But should I realize the road is ending?
I am now in 50's, my looks and boyish charms all lost to the winds of time, I am not pleasing to look at, these dreaded eye bags that have plagued me for years are now making me feel conscious, I see myself on these videos and know I look look old and tired, no wonder finding a good woman has been mission impossible for so long.
I see so many Vanlife and Adventure Youtube channels, all run by people in their 20's and 30's all easy on the eyes and all women, strange that right? Sex sells, indeed it does and I am just as guilty on clicking on a vanlife video thumbnails with some cute girl wearing a bikini stood next to her van with a dog and waterfall on it. Guilty as charged.
I don't think most people realize just how much effort goes into making content every weekend, the planning, filming, editing, music and sound effects, color grading, rendering, social media posts, thumbnails, graphics and round and round we go on this soul destroying social media roundabout that either elevates you to the stars or crushes your soul with no views, no interactions and no interest. Youtube can be harmful for your mental and physical health as it feels like a personal rejection.
"Round and round we go on this soul destroying social media round about that either elevates you to the stars or crushes your soul"
I did start the channel making wild camping videos before that became a MTB channel which developed into an adventure and vanlife/hiking channel, I do feel it's where I now want to be. So in all honesty and reality I am starting again, the vast majority who subbed to me for MTB videos and content are now left with no interest in the things I produce and for that I am sorry but without support and views whats the point.
Should I give in?.. I can't.
It sounds sad, I hear the small violins playing in the background now but it's all I have, no gf, wife, kids, my whole life seems to revolve around content creation and for two reasons:
It keeps me busy, and helps my creative mind express itself and secondly I always wanted it to change my life, the dream was for it to be financially viable for me to leave work and travel and create content on the go, it feels like nobody will help or is even bothered. So that question comes around again.. should I know I am wasting my time? 8 years on Youtube and not 1 sponsor and only 3 Patreons.
£15 a month income from Youtube will never allow me to have the life I have tried so hard to make, I will keep going I cannot die on this mountain knowing I didn't give it my all.
If you would like to help me get closer to my dream, or want to support me and the channel you can by reaching out to me on bootsonthegrounduk@gmail.com or buy me a Coffee or Patreon. Any help is appreciated I wanted this so bad I sometimes feel there is no light in the fog that seeps into the valleys and dales here in Yorkshire.
I will keep going, I am after all a Taurus just waiting for a china shop to come along and present itself.
Thanks in advance.
Andy,
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